Is it time?

I've been asking myself that question on a daily basis lately.  When I started my job as a school counselor, I couldn't wait for the school year to start and I looked forward to almost all aspects of my job.  My job has had it's stressful times and days but it's rewards have made it a dream job for me.  For years I've secretly told myself that I would do this job for free because I love it so much. 

Don't get me wrong, I do like the pay check and it has helped us become totally debt free as a family.

More importantly, God has used me to help children and I will be forever grateful.  Some of my students have dealt with abusive situations and it seemed like just when those situations became too heavy I had a rush of "boy crazy" ten year old girls to guide. 

I don't seem to feel the same passion for my job.  I am so tired.  I use most of my weekends to sleep and rest so I can be ready to work again on Monday.  I find myself too tired to attend church.  I feel ashamed about that.

I have two more days until summer break.  I wonder if I will feel differently after weeks of rest.  I am blessed that Dan is supportive of me and whatever I decide.  Do I want to quit now or work one more year?   It's up to me.  If I do work one more year, all of my salary will all go toward our retirement. 

I won't decide today or tomorrow. 

I will rest.

I will travel. 

I will visit all of my grandkids.

I will pray.  In a month I will decide. 

Keep me in your prayers.