I've been asking myself that question on a daily basis lately. When I started my job as a school counselor, I couldn't wait for the school year to start and I looked forward to almost all aspects of my job. My job has had it's stressful times and days but it's rewards have made it a dream job for me. For years I've secretly told myself that I would do this job for free because I love it so much.
Don't get me wrong, I do like the pay check and it has helped us become totally debt free as a family.
More importantly, God has used me to help children and I will be forever grateful. Some of my students have dealt with abusive situations and it seemed like just when those situations became too heavy I had a rush of "boy crazy" ten year old girls to guide.
I don't seem to feel the same passion for my job. I am so tired. I use most of my weekends to sleep and rest so I can be ready to work again on Monday. I find myself too tired to attend church. I feel ashamed about that.
I have two more days until summer break. I wonder if I will feel differently after weeks of rest. I am blessed that Dan is supportive of me and whatever I decide. Do I want to quit now or work one more year? It's up to me. If I do work one more year, all of my salary will all go toward our retirement.
I won't decide today or tomorrow.
I will rest.
I will travel.
I will visit all of my grandkids.
I will pray. In a month I will decide.
Keep me in your prayers.
